Today I am leaving Kripalu, and I had a revelation about offering ones experience to God or higher power or nature or the universe or whatever expression of that which is larger than us as individuals that works for someone... I've been familliar with the concept for a while but it never felt right. Why would I offer stuff I really don't want or like to the divine? Isn't that disrespectful? And then with stuff I really like I'm usually too busy enjoying whatever it is to even think about anything beyond myself.
Well, today I saw it differently. Some things easily pass through ones experience. Those things are not an issue, emotionally. It's the sticky stuff that becomes something problematic in our growth and process of maturation. Offering up the "sticky stuff" allows us to move forward, and basically keep us moving in life. And this moving forward through experience and maturation is important in terms of a "larger plan" or divine plan--if you go for that.
Things that might stick to a person and prevent them from clarity are things like: anger, sloth, sadness, depression, hurt, victim status. I might feel my anger and not like it and deny it and suffer as a result because it's true whether I like it or not. Or, my anger is important to me so I carry it like the carry-on bag I have with me right now. I think that I can't possibly offer this anger to God. When I think in this way I am personalizing a process that is not personal. To me my anger is personal, but to the process of life (another way to conceptualize divinity) my anger isn't so personal. In the larger sense of life my anger is just a little blip. It might be like when I look down from the window of this airplane--it's hard to discern where one cloud ends and another begins. There is just anger in experience the way there are clouds in the air. So when I offer up what is blocking me from moving forward, this helps me to align myself with a higher purpose. So it's really good to offer up ones anger, sadness, etc. to God, because the process of life is big enough to handle it. And when we release whatever is blocking us from moving forward with actions stemming from love and compassion it is very good for the larger process of life. We begin to serve something bigger that our individual life story. We can reach out and help and heal. Sound good?
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